Turning Into The Storm

Turning into the storms of life is the safest place to be. It is here we are carried, sheltered and protected.

Oh, The danger that the cattle put themselves in when they turn their heads away from the storm. The winter snow can swirl around their bodies and lodge within their nostrils. The frozen effect of the storm can suffocate and block the air that is needed to survive. This loving photo of a true cowboy is an example to us all. Through the storm he carries a struggling calf by sheltering and protecting it in his arms. He walks bearing the calf by turning into the storm, the safest place to be. Today when the winter storms come into your life allow Jesus to carry you to safety. Be proud of each “cowboy” who exemplifies this spiritual truth for he is doing what he was born to do. He is the American Cowboy. A true cattleman in every sense of the word.

Turning Into The Storm

I Was Home For Christmas Last Night

For an instant on Christmas Eve’s joyous celebration last night, I reflected on some very special memories.

This Christmas found me where the reality of love’s light gleamed. There were smiles on faces, expressive laughter resounding with joy, and conversations of life experiences. This all filled the home with warmth like a fresh Yule Log burning in a grand fireplace. There were stories shared of family traditions as descriptions of Christmas cookies and peanut bars danced in our heads. Recounting the tales of how foods were spiced and how much time was spent to prepare brought a hungering taste of anticipation to our palates. Others remarked with turned tongues that they could not even bear to try this or that delicacy from the farm in North Dakota. Tonight the home was adorned with beautiful decorations, the table setting looked like a posed ideal photo calling out an invitation to come and dine. The presents were piled high by the tree, the aroma of the chili simmered on the stove, texts were sent and received, all blending into a Christmas memory of this year’s celebration. Prophetic thoughts of future celebrations yet to be humbled us all. My granddaughter spoke of just realizing that when she reaches the 1/4 century mark of her birth her mother will reach the half century mark in her life. My Grandson immediately responded that when he reaches his quarter century mark of his birth Grandpa will reach his 3/4 century mark. Lifetimes of blessings indeed of Christmases past, present, and future.

When we finished our Christmas eve meal the table was quickly cleared. The leftovers found their way to the fridge. The dishes were washed and tucked away in their places within the cupboard. The long-awaited phrase we had learned as children resonated throughout the house, “We’re ready to open presents!”.

Everyone started to move toward the living room. Excitement could be heard from the youngest to the oldest. All would nestle into their selected spots and await the distribution of their gifts from under the brightly glowing tree.

As I made my way from the dining room table, I passed by a tall antique cabinet that belonged to my grandmother, “Little Grandma”, Lillian Borgendale Simpson. It was at that moment I paused on my journey to open presents. I know not if it was that my eyes were just made clearer from recent cataract surgery but I was drawn to the cabinet as never before. I tenderly placed my hand upon the old wooden chest and moved my fingers over it. With a spirit of humility and reverence my hand moved over it as if I was touching the smoothness of grandmother’s cheek I knew as a child. It was at that singular instant, I was home for Christmas.

My heart swelled within me as I realized that I had passed by that cabinet all of my life. When my mother first carried me as a newborn baby into the home of her parents I would have passed by this very cabinet. When crawling I passed by this same cabinet, before I could talk I passed by it, when I took my first steps at “Little Grandmas” I would have walked by this precious cabinet now turned golden with the patina of years gone by.

Through the years I could not even begin to count the times I had passed by this cabinet filled with generational treasures. Some were from Norway when the Borgendale’s came to America and settled on the SW Minnesota Farm near Dawson. My first preaching experience after graduating from Bible College served some people from Dawson that were members of Antelope Hills Church of Christ in rural Canby, Minnesota.

My entire journey of life opening the gifts of God, of family and of friends for 72 years is a blessing of inheritance. I am humbly grateful to God to be overwhelmed by His gift to me in Christ. Our first child was born while we lived north of Canby. It is at our daughter’s house where this cabinet now stands. Passed down to my mother, to my sister and then to my daughter it reminded me tonight of God’s gift of Jesus to my life. He did not overlook any of us as He prepared a manger and gave us the gift of Emmanuel “God with us”.

Each of us has a cabinet or curio filled with countless blessings. On your journey of life pause and reflect on His uncountable blessings in your life.

Last night I was home for Christmas! It was more than a dream. God planned for me and prepares the number of years yet to be.

Share the gift of God by giving to others every day of the year. Open the eyes of others with clear vision to see the real meaning of Christmas. It is God working in our lives for generations yet to be. Don’t let your life pass by without taking the time to see His daily care for you. The generational impact of His eternal love spurs us on to tell the story of Jesus. He alone is God’s gift to you. Unwrap your gift today. It bears your name and is given to you by your Father who is preparing a place for you. My prayer for you is that you will one day be truly home for Christmas.

Grandma’s cabinet drew me home for Christmas

A Cherished Christmas

As you look “up” this Christmas may the warmth of your cheeks melt the purity of the winter snow. May your eyes see the true gift of Jesus falling upon you this Christmas. “Though your sins be like scarlet they shall be whiter than snow”. Make this a cherished Christmas. May your life be a music box of Christmas memories.

In the moonlight of a cold Minnesota winter the perfectly formed snow flakes glistened as they softly fell to the ground. We had made a long Christmas journey from South Dakota to the farm of Uncle Cecil and Aunt Marge. The unwrapping of the miracle of a cherished Christmas began as we turned from the graveled snow-packed county road to the quiet pathway leading “home”. Dozing travelers with nodding heads leaning on the shoulders of the person next to them were awakened by our driver who announced, “We’re here!” Each of us sat up straight as we carefully followed the headlights through the darkness of night. As we stepped out of the warm car the snow melted instantly on our warm cheeks. I distinctly remember looking up and seeing the gift of perfection of each flake falling upon my eyes. They seemed to grow larger as they fell from Heaven to kiss my face. The heart-warming beauty caused me to blink as I watched for a moment in time. My eyes looked down as the yard light snapped on and ignited the brisk windless night. There was Uncle Cecil welcoming us in a way that only families who are unconditionally loved can know. We made our way through the yard gate. My father in-law, Cecil’s brother Ralph, my mother in-law, Irma, my young bride Janice holding my hand, and her cousin Lila with babe in arms entered the warmth of the farmhouse. We were all greeted by a huge hug from Aunt Marge. It was the first time I had met them. Seeing two brothers embrace was priceless. No words spoken, just holding each other surrounded by hearts filled with love and life’s experiences shared through the years. Aunt Marge broke the silence of that tearful moment as she exclaimed, “Merry Christmas”! We had reached our Christmas journey and we were “Home”.

The next morning the kitchen was filled with the smells of breakfast cooking. We all gathered around one large table where Cecil led us in prayer thanking God for safe travel, His blessings, and the bountiful food that graced the table. The fellowship of family is a treasure beyond compare. Their young son, Paul, filled with Christmas anticipation and excitement said, “We have been waiting for you to come before we cut down our Christmas tree!” How excited we all were that we would be included in this Christmas memory— never to be forgotten but remembered to this day.

Cecil and Ralph bundled up to do chores together as they had done for years as small boys growing up in North Dakota. At last the men hooked up the hay wagon to the tractor and returned to the house. Each us layered up and put on our winter coats, scarfs, hats and mittens preparing to gather the tree. Everyone went. Christmas carols were led by Marge as Cecil drove the tractor. No choir could sing the carols of Christmas more joyfully. Our lifted voices rang out in song as our warm breath changed to a glorious mist with every exhale. Through the snow to the trees north on the acreage the sputter of the tractor stopped and we all saw the tree that was to become our cherished Christmas tree. We jumped off the wagon and gathered round as the men cut the tree and placed it on the wagon. While making our way back to the farmhouse there was an elevation of joy in our united voices. We sang with only the rhythmic beat of the tractor blended in praise. The penetrating fragrance of a fresh cut tree is breathtaking.

Today, five decades later, that cherished Christmas on a small Minnesota farm still warms my heart. The cherished lives lived so long ago who introduced me to the true meaning of a “family Christmas” are no longer here but remain in my Christmas thoughts every year. The carols we sang so long ago while riding on the hay wagon were like music boxes tinkling a joyous Christmas song of peace and good tidings of great joy.

Through 48 years of marriage and serving Christ together as minister and wife we often talked about that cherished Christmas shared so long ago. Through the years Janice began collecting music boxes. Some were gifts received, others were purchased. The sound of a music box became important to both of us through the years. Through joyous times and through the darkest moments we are lifted by the simple notes ringing out from music boxes in our home. God blessed our lives together with two children and two grandchildren. Each brought their own song— songs with many cherished Christmas melodies for generations yet to be. The true gifts of Christmas are opened with faithfulness. In the darkness of this world we are awakened as we find our way “Home”. In the fullness of time there is the cherished Christmas in each of our lives.

My Janice passed away just before Christmas four years ago. This year I determined to honor her by making a special Christmas tree to display her large collection of music boxes. Careful planning and engineering resulted in displaying 64 of her Christmas music boxes. Each is a reminder of a cherished Christmas. Janice has now reached her Christmas journey and is now “Home”. Today, I continue my Christmas journey inspired by those who traveled before me.

As you look “up” this Christmas may the warmth of your cheeks melt the purity of the winter snow. May your eyes see the true gift of Jesus falling upon you this Christmas. “Though you sins be like scarlet they shall be whiter than snow”. Make this Christmas a cherished Christmas. May your life be a music box of Christmas memories.

Cherished Music Box Christmas Tree

The Little Red Truck Goes Beep, Beep, Beep

From the fields of the sower to the Ministry of Christ the little red truck found it’s destiny from it’s first mile to it’s last mile.

It was an exciting day when the little red truck arrived on the family farm. The excited farmer made the corner from the highway and carefully made the turn unto the driveway. He was home. The little red chevy pickup was so excited all it could say was, “Beep, Beep, Beep!” The farmer’s wife dressed wearing her kitchen apron powdered with flour was holding the baby on her hip. She came running from the house before the little red truck could stop. Smiles beamed from all their faces as they were thrilled to meet the new addition to their family. Johnny, came running from the Barn, Susan looked up as she was feeding the chickens, as soon as they heard the “Beep, Beep, Beep” it was though the new little red truck was beckoning them to new adventures that awaited them on the Farm.

Even the animals got excited, The cows raised their heads from grazing and gently Mooed as given their approval. The chickens stopped scratching as their heads raised to attention. The pigs squealed, the ducks quacked, the geese waddled in one group to see what was causing all the commotion. As the farmer arrived at the house, he said, “Well, what do think of this new little red truck”? The dogs and the cats were already checking out the tires. The farmer’s wife still holding their baby welcomed her husband home with a kiss as a little tear flowed down her cheek. She clearly saw the proud look on the face of her husband and the shiny little red truck seemed to beam a glow on each of the faces of the children. Life was not always easy on the farm. There are always so many unknowns in farming. Always expenses that seemed to come up that threatened from time to time. She knew full well that a new truck was needed to assist her husband with all his hard work day in and day out as he tirelessly provided for his family working the farm to it’s highest potential. Today, a dream had come true. They had saved and worked hard as a family so the farm could have a new pickup. The children all wanted a ride immediately and Dad was glad to accommodate them all. Their mother stayed behind knowing the truck was already full. There would be countless rides together with her husband through the years ahead. She knew that she would also be driving that truck herself. It became a part of their happy family for many years. The little red truck never forgot to say, “Beep, Beep, Beep”. In fact it always spoke up just at the right time! At times it was a warning, at times it was the voice of love, at times it was long and drawn out as it echoed throughout the farm yard. At time is was quick, at times it called the cattle, at times it called the children, “It is time to go!” Sometimes it was like the old farm Bell that stood just outside the front porch of the farmhouse near the kitchen. Instead of calling every one to the bountiful table to eat it resonated , “Goodbye, be home soon!”

At last, the little red truck that says, “Beep, Beep, Beep” found it’s destiny on a working family farm. It carried the seed, the bales of hay to feed the livestock, the parts to fix other farm implements, it took the kids to school, and it carried the groceries. It was always happy to go to a farm auction and the farmer filled the bed with items for the family or for the farm. It was used everyday in countless ways.

Jesus’ parable about the Sower clearly tells the story of a farmer who sows seed and does so indiscriminately. Some seed falls on the path with no soil, some on rocky ground with little soil, some on thorny soil, and some on good soil. The first three examples Jesus teaches that the seed fails to produce a crop. When the seed falls on good soil it grows, yielding thirty, sixty, or a hundred fold. (Matt. 13:1-23, Mark 4:1-20, and Luke 8:4-15).

Each planting season the little red truck faithfully did it’s part in helping the farmer. The bags of seed were stacked in the shed awaiting the exact time for planting. When the time arrived, “Beep, Beep, Beep”, as the farmer backed up to the shed to load the bags of seed. The farmer lifted each bag carefully and loaded it into the little red truck. Rarely, a bag would slightly tear and a small portion of seed would fall upon the bed of the truck. As the truck made it’s way to the field Jesus’ parable was revealed every planting season. Some seed fell upon the cement floor in the shed. Some fell on the pathway leading to the field where the tractor and planter were waiting. Some fell where the pathway was rocky and the little red truck bounced trying to reach it’s destination. When they arrived at the gate of the prepared field and made the slight turn some fell by the thorns that grew by the gate. None of those seeds that fell would grow too maturity. The little red truck pulled up next to the planter that was already hitched to the tractor. The farmer carefully placed all the seed into the implement holders and started the tractor. All the seed fell on good soil. Though the months that followed the little red truck was always there checking the fields, watching the corn and soybeans grow. What victory in the fall when every one was blessed by a bountiful crop. Even the little red truck said at the end of every harvest season, “Beep, Beep, Beep!”

As many years rolled by the little red truck began to fade. It seemed to need more and more repairs. The body was rusty and it was just wearing out. I was glad to be making a pastoral call once again at the home of this farm family. I was always excited to do so. The family had just began to attend church and the children were taking piano lessons from my wife at our home. We soon had become friends. When I got ready to leave their home the farmer asked me, “Preacher do you think you would like to buy my old red truck? It still runs, but I need to sell it.”

After talking it over with my wife, I called the farmer the following day and we agreed on a price. I was going to come by and pick up the truck the following day. I was so excited it seemed that i could not even sleep. I never had a truck of my own before. All I could see were lots of possibilities in my thoughts but never once did I think of what God was going to do with the little red truck that said,”Beep, Beep, Beep!”in my ministry.

When I paid the farmer the little red truck pulled out of his driveway and said, “Beep, Beep, Beep.” in a mournful tone. It was good-bye to the farm he loved. When I arrived home in town and pulled into my drive in the subdivision, the horn sounded again, 3 times. This time it was my wife that came to the door and it was my children that gathered around the truck and wanted a ride. We rolled the windows down and went on our first family ride in the old rusty truck. We were happy! The truck was now a city truck and the days of working on the farm were days of the past. A new kind of work was to begin that was very much like the work the little red truck already knew.

My children and I washed and clean the truck inside and out. We even waxed the faded paint and put a new seat cover on the interior. We played a old circus music tape while we washed and played in the water together. It seemed that we squirted each other with the hose more than we did on the truck. The children still remember riding in the old truck with that circus music playing loudly. I guess I was crazy and knew it would not last but I even put vinyl shelving paper over the parts of the body of the truck that were so rusty. It really looked good. The wooden design brought a lot of laughs and smiles as it covered a multitude of rust and body damage.

The truck became such an intregal part of my ministry. I used the little red truck extensively. It faithfully hauled materials and tools to the construction site where we were building a new church building. Countless trips were made all doing the work of Christ. God had blessed the church where we were serving and the church was really growing quite fast. On one occasion when the building was just finished, two gentleman from the church rode along with me to Bellevue, Nebraska to pick up some barely used office furniture. While on the Interstate the little red truck started overheating. We finally were able to find a garage and had a new thermostat put on and we were on our way.

The little red truck was truly my assistant. Together we planted seeds all over Buffalo County. On the farms and in the city the precious seed was always in the truck. There were people to see, calls to make, responses to crises situations assigned by the Sheriff’s Department. There were Youth group outings, church picnics, and community events where the seed was planted. Sometimes it fell by the wayside where there was no soil, sometimes on rocky paths were there was barely any soil, sometimes the soil was filled with so many thorns that the seeds could not grow. Always where there was good soil the seed, the Word of God, flourished. Together we planted, the Church watered, and God gave the increase. An old farm truck that reached it’s true destiny in helping people find a living relationship with Christ. The amazing miracle is that the sound never changed. Being used by God to carry the message we are all vessels in His hand.

And the little red truck said, “Beep, Beep, Beep” until it could go no more.

Oh, if only we could be as consistent in sowing the seeds for a lifetime awaiting for the final harvest!

Paul D. Sisson

The Guardian

As I bowed my head I thanked God that He had allowed Bryan the recovery needed to once again take up his life.

     Not so long ago, (has it really been 21 years), my wife and I were faced with decisions that a presiding judge called, “A parents’ worst nightmare!”  It had only been a few months since we celebrated Bryan’s 18th birthday, a day declaring his personal independence and manhood. But now I had just testified in a proceeding petitioning the court to give back to me the legal guardianship to make decisions on Bryan’s behalf.  The courtroom was filled to capacity and as our case was called, my heart broke again as I was placed in the difficult position of removing my son’s ability to make decisions for himself. Moving toward the witness stand, our attorney began the process of taking my testimony.  I spoke of my relationship with my son and delineated my personal background.  As we continued I was asked to describe Bryans’ injuries fully and explain the life saving care he was currently receiving.  A deafening silence filled the courtroom as I spoke.  Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed the bailiff raise his handkerchief to dry his eyes.  The court had previously appointed a local attorney to represent Bryan in the guardianship proceeding to insure that his best interests were served.  At the conclusion of my testimony, the Judge asked Bryan’s appointed attorney to speak.  She said that she had no objection to my becoming Bryan’s guardian and urged the court to grant the petition. Immediately the judge gaveled a sound that echoed throughout the court room.  The petition was granted and I became Bryan’s legal guardian.  As Janice and I rode back to the hospital from the courthouse, our eyes filled with tears.  We both prayed that God would give us the wisdom to make the right decisions facing us as parents in the coming days, months and years.

     Bryan was on full life support for a long period of time.  His intensive care room was filled as lines for monitors, ventilator, G tube; J tube, IV’s, and cranial pressure monitor were attached to his body and sustained his life.  The tracheotomy and brain stint surgeries were successfully completed.  For weeks Bryan was unconscious and non responsive.  Janice and I were allowed into his ICU room for only 15 minutes every four hours.  At times we would see his foot or hand move and we would leap for joy and begin to cry.  The doctors would carefully explain that all these movements were involuntary and Bryan was not exhibiting purposeful movement.

     After the first week, the two neuro doctors advised us that Bryan was “slipping away”, and informed us that we should prepare ourselves for Bryan’s pending death.  We went back to our sleeping rooms on the second floor of the hospital with our daughter, Jennifer, and prayed for our son and brother.  We held each other knowing that God was holding each of us in His hands.   As we lay down in exhaustion we planned Bryan’s funeral service, feeling that it would soon be impossible to think clearly should we lose our son that night.

      We did not find out until months later that at this time the two neurologists had agreed that it was time to take Bryan off of life support.  The medical evidence had led them to believe that the injury was far too severe for him to recover and have any chance of a normal life.   One of the nurses who had worked in the Neuro ICU for over twenty five years spoke up to the two doctors and said, “I have a feeling about this patient and I think that you need to give this boy a little more time.”   Janice and I are forever indebted to that nurse for her courage to speak up and share her feelings about our son.  Her statement and convincing manner changed the decision of the two doctors who agreed to give Bryan more time.  Jan is one the heroes in Bryan’s recovery, a ministering angel of God dressed as a nurse in the Neuro ICU. I am forever indebted to her for saving me the heart-wrenching decision of acting upon the neurologists’ recommendation.

     Gradually, almost imperceptibly at first, Bryan’s condition began to improve.  There were set backs and from time to time advances that filled us with hope and then sank back again to a previous or lower state.  People all over the world were praying and God was answering each of their prayers. The Valley View congregation in Texas was a faithful prayer partner with us in seeking Bryan’s healing and God’s guidance and strength for myself, my wife, and our daughter.

     The process of waking up from a coma is a slow process.  It is not like the movies make it appear where someone just wakes up from an unconscious state and everything falls back into order.  There were deep valleys to walk though and mountains that seemed too high but we remembered the climb as he slowly regained consciousness.  Bryan could not swallow, he could not talk, and he could not walk.  The inability to swallow kept the feeding tube from being removed.  Through months of therapy the doctors were able to retrain another portion of his brain to control his ability to swallow.  There were weeks of testing, watching a moving X-ray of his swallowing, of therapy and neck massage. The feeding tube remained until consistent swallowing was accomplished.  It was difficult and slow but God is always in control through every step.  The months and years that followed saw Bryan press ahead at each challenge before him.  One by one he faced each obstacle as a determined young man. Doctors and therapists often told us that where he stopped or gave up would be the final point of his recovery.  Bryan seemed to instinctively know that if he did not go beyond the pain he would plateau.  On one occasion three physical therapists broke Bryan’s arm while trying to bend his elbow.  Yet he was ready to return the next day to let them continue to work on his right arm.  A therapy technique called serial casting was implemented in an attempt to make the arm bend.   Each day they would remove the cast, bend the elbow further, and recast it in a new position. The pain was excruciating.  Ultimately, following two surgeries, Bryan was able to gain limited motion in his arm.  

     Four years later, Bryan and I returned to the courthouse where I had originally been given his guardianship.  This time the petition before the court was to remove the guardianship and restore to Bryan his independence.  As we waited in the hallway for our case to be called, I once again reflected upon the experiences that we had faced together.  As I bowed my head I thanked God that He had allowed Bryan the recovery needed to once again take up his life.  As I lifted my head from prayer a gentleman approached me, “Mr. Sisson?”  I said, “Yes”.  It was the judge that had originally granted the guardianship and he was now in private practice as an attorney.  He immediately asked about my son.  I introduced him to Bryan. 

     Our case was called and we entered the courtroom.  Both Bryan and I testified this time.   The judge talked to Bryan at length and Bryan answered his every question.  The judge informed us that the Taney County Court had never removed a guardianship for two reasons:  1. A guardian rarely wants to relinquish control, or 2. The patient never recovers to the point of having the guardianship removed. The judge dissolved the guardianship that day and Bryan became his own person once again. Soon thereafter, Bryan made his plans to transfer to the University of North Texas.  Bryan soon graduated with a Bachelor’s Degree and two years later with a Master’s Degree. Both were days of celebration for him and answered prayer for his mother and me. 

      It is true that a parent will do anything possible to save the life of a child they love no matter what the cost or sacrifice.  Now with the resent passing of his mother and my beloved wife Bryan is now undertaking a new journey in his life.  Today he will load his personal belongings and will be moving to a new apartment on the beach in Galveston, Texas.    I will miss him. After selling his home a year ago in Dallas he decided to move back home with us and assist in the care for his mother.  I can hardly believe that it has been nearly seven months since Janice went to her new home in Heaven so peacefully.  Now the former Guardian and Protector of my wife and son will be alone in the quietness of this house.  Not alone in this life but loved by a daughter and her family forever.  I am blessed beyond measure to be loved by Christ and to serve Him as the true Guardian and Protector of my soul.  Who is the guardian of your life? Who stands with you in the valleys?  Who holds your hand when you cannot find the way?  Who is your Protector?   Who is the one who watches over you as you journey in this life?     IT IS JESUS CHRIST!  Walk with him every step of the way.  Rejoice that our spiritual life support is always present with us. Take great comfort in the moments of today in knowing that Christ is your Living Water!

     John 4:13-14: “Jesus answered and said unto her, Every one that drinketh of this water shall thirst again: but whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall become in him a well of water springing up unto eternal life.”  Daily we are fed as Christ is our Bread of Life.  John 6:35: “Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall not hunger, and he that believeth on me shall never thirst.”

Paul D. Sisson